godsmith

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another day in the god shop….what will i make today?
looking for the perfect fit…size, comfort, practical sensibility.
it needs a sense of stylish flair, but nothing too gaudy for my taste.
i don’t need it all the time..just for those moments of loneliness…
oh and for those times of recreation……. hours of fun!

i need a plan, a blueprint…this needs to be well thought out.
materials…hmm…wood, steel, plastic….what suits me best?
whatever, this should be cutting edge!  can’t be one upped by someone else.
i don’t want it to be outdated in a few months, needs to last a little while.

hours have passed and i can’t believe i’m still working on this.
i can feel the sweatbeads on my forehead hanging on for life…then losing their grip.
newfound muscles aching……. must press on, keep hammering away.
i think i’m finished…. no, wait!…another flaw, imperfection. keep hammering..

whew…need a break.  no!  fight the urge, don’t stop!  keep hammering…
i’m so tired…sore…drained….must keep hammering…..
what time is it?  no!  that can’t be!  clock must be wrong!  years have passed…
i’m still not finished!  can’t stop now!  all would be in vain to stop now!! keep hammering…

maybe when i’m finished, i can finally relax and enjoy my craftmanship..
maybe then i can finally rest…keep hammering…

what’s this?  vision blurred…what’s that clock say?? …..no!  no! …. can’t..impossible!
my life is ending?? but i haven’t finished with my project!! hammer..hammer….hammer.
hammer…..hammer…………..YES!  FINISHED!!

it’s not perfect, but it’s done….my own little god…..
it took a long time to craft, a lifetime to be exact, but it’s done.
look at him!  not too big, small enough to take with me..
not too loud…no sound at all for that matter.
just what i always wanted….a god that won’t pester, offend , harm me.
he will set where i place him…he will be there when i need him.
the best thing is…he looks like me….a near spitting image!
years of laboring…striving…trying…self-relying….managing……

now what?

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